Yesterday went to tf6, but din really enjoy myself that much. I also don't know why. Maybe too sian of tertiary fling oreadi. George was like not very happy as well. But in the end, while at the bridge, he smiled a bit. I miss miss him. Heez! Hope to see him real soon. Just meet up with fcukit ppl and went to the bridge to chill and had some drinks with them. After which i went home with raine. Actually was thinking of taking the cab outside MOS. However, it seems NO CAB at all. Hence, we went opposite side to catch cabs instead. I hope that raine managed to catch a cab also.
Today went to my stupid tutorial class in the morning. I was feeling very pek cek in the morning. Don't know why. Maybe it's because my face is not recovering very well. Hence, after class i went to the skin clinic to see the doctor. It took me quite a while because i had to wait for my turn. It was like waiting for years before my turn comes. Number 34 to 40 is like years leh and Doc Diane Jek was a good doctor but just that she takes very long to see a patient. When it was my turn, I told the doc that my skin is not recovering that well and that i've new pops pops coming out. She press press a bit and look at all the pops. Then she asks me not to squeeze them and most importantly drink more water. Heex! The medicine is the most heart pain part. It cost me $70!!!!! The most EX consultation + medication in my life!!! But i really hope that my face will recover real soon.
I saw qiqi's blog just now only. It was like...awww...qi, you broke your contact lens huh? Sad-sad! Clumsy clumsy arh? Must be careful when taking out the contact lens yah? =) Weeeee~!! I saw your top and shoes. Hiao lar~! Wear new shoes at tf6. Legs have blister. HAHA!!! =p I also want to go watch movie marathon leh!!! Must add me in horz, if you're going to watch. I heard WG organising an movie "Pirates of the Caribbean" for all whoisgoing ppl leh. It is in the forum. You can go take a look. Spiderman 3 COME out liao, i also wanna go watch!! Lai Lai!!! =DD Qi, you wanna go get jigsaw puzzle to do ah? That is one of my favourite leh. Heex! When you wanna go get and do, let me know can? I go meet you and pei u go buy. Onz or not? Good fren jiu shi like that de. Hehe!
Okies bah. Nothing much to say le. George called to said that he went to friend's chalet. I asked if he was going to stay over at the chalet. He said guess not coz the next day he've to work. Hope he have a nice time over at the chalet. That's all for now.
-=Signing off=-
1950 hours
Friday, April 27, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
Overwhelmed by sadness..
Ok. I shall post this blog as the beginning of a new life.
I was overwhelmed by sadness and pain to the maximum. I didn't know that having feelings for someone could be that painful until i am feeling dull dull dull and sad for the entire day in school. I've to force myself to concentrate on lessons even though my heart and mind is not willing to listen. Until the time that i came home from the bus trip, i was still overwhelmed with it. =.=!!! Till the time i came home, he called me. Over the conversation, he told me he had a heated argument with his grandfather over some conventional thinking matters. I assured him and ask him to cool down after the quarrel. He came home and i saw him chatting on WG. He just called my name instead of the usual greetings. I was like thinking we're completely gone already. Coz he told me if he were to hurt me now, next time he will hurt me more. But i really love him a lot! So much so that if he was gone, i think i would be daMM lost in the desert walking alone. I am so used to him being around. I can't see what and how will i survive without his presence. I understand that he doesn't want to see me being hurt as well. I wanna go through the hurdle with him even just listening to him or give him my morale support till he goes through the problem.
I love u, dar dar.
-=Endz=-
1033 hours
I was overwhelmed by sadness and pain to the maximum. I didn't know that having feelings for someone could be that painful until i am feeling dull dull dull and sad for the entire day in school. I've to force myself to concentrate on lessons even though my heart and mind is not willing to listen. Until the time that i came home from the bus trip, i was still overwhelmed with it. =.=!!! Till the time i came home, he called me. Over the conversation, he told me he had a heated argument with his grandfather over some conventional thinking matters. I assured him and ask him to cool down after the quarrel. He came home and i saw him chatting on WG. He just called my name instead of the usual greetings. I was like thinking we're completely gone already. Coz he told me if he were to hurt me now, next time he will hurt me more. But i really love him a lot! So much so that if he was gone, i think i would be daMM lost in the desert walking alone. I am so used to him being around. I can't see what and how will i survive without his presence. I understand that he doesn't want to see me being hurt as well. I wanna go through the hurdle with him even just listening to him or give him my morale support till he goes through the problem.
I love u, dar dar.
-=Endz=-
1033 hours
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Lost along the way..
Okie. WG is lagging badly again and i can't enter into it. Hence, i am here to type type my blog. I am lost along the way again as usual. Why must it be hitting me so hard leh? I tried ways and means to hide all the sadness and sorrows that i'm facing coz i believe that the day will be better. And..i hope it will really do.
Guess i should not force him to do anything and just go with the flow bahz. However, i feel that i don't stand in any position in his heart at all. Sad case, ain't it so? It is just a terrible and horrigible feeling that i am suffering from. He makes my day when i dream of him; However, he makes me sad also. Oh my god!! Why is it so leh? I simply have no idea. *Sighs!!* Guess just let natural takes its place ba. No point i put in so much effort but he doesn't know.
Lost in space.
-=Endz=-
1115 hours Out
Guess i should not force him to do anything and just go with the flow bahz. However, i feel that i don't stand in any position in his heart at all. Sad case, ain't it so? It is just a terrible and horrigible feeling that i am suffering from. He makes my day when i dream of him; However, he makes me sad also. Oh my god!! Why is it so leh? I simply have no idea. *Sighs!!* Guess just let natural takes its place ba. No point i put in so much effort but he doesn't know.
Lost in space.
-=Endz=-
1115 hours Out
A sad n yet happy night at club momo yesterday...
*Yawns! Yawns!!* Really very very sleepy but had to wake up early coz friend keep on calling me. Wake up liao, nothing to do so decide to come online to blog my feelings before i forget what happened yesterday night. But really had a HELL of a time at CLUB MOMO yesterday, last day for the club. MOMO will be undergoing a 3 weeks renovation and after which will become VELVET DRAGON lo.
Met up with Qiqi and Ricky outside momo yesterday. We were thirsty and George was hungry. So we decided to had a drink and some food to chill and relax for waiting for time to pass. After a while, we met DAVE, Robin and his friend. Subsequently also met Sean from DK4, Takashi, Shawnie, IKo, James, Angela and Coolbabe. Not long my korkor came liao. We went over to the members queue to meet up with him an went to find our table. Inside momo, while looking for our table, there were lots of ups and downs la! We had to wait for a long time to find the V3 table while looking for the manager Celine and were standing there like a statue for i think about half and hour or so. Qiqi was so pissed off. Heh!!! Not long kor came in and started to open 2 of the Martell bottles. I drank and enjoyed the music. It was only later that the music started to be nice and was dancing whole night long. Luckily our table there has a fan. Otherwise die liao coz very very hot after dancing. I did went down to the dance area to dance dance a bit with Verlyn and Lynette. Saw Fel and the rest next to the DJ as well. All was fun!!! Oh oh! Met Ajuana, Sean MoMo and others as well. =)) Then George told me that he saw his ex opposite. I was like "Duh!! Sianx full time liao!!!" Then started to give him the attitude lo. Qiqi asked him to come and coax me and it was like only after a while then i give in to him. He knows that i am jealous and tries to tell me not to.
Guy : I never miss her at all lor..here finishing soon. You go sleep first. i reach home sms u ok? miss u. [Awww..How sweet of him right?] I really like him a LOT larz. DIE LIAO!! I also don't know how.
As time goes by, soon it was time for me to leave that place and head for home liao. Before leaving, i gave him a super Big HUGZ then went home. Nice Nice hug u know? ^.^ George left i think about 5+. He went home to shower a bit then went back to work at 6.30am. Really very tiring for him. *Sighs!* No choice. Work ma. I woke up at about 11am and message him. He called me shortly and told me that his eyes cannot open liao. In an orr-orr mode. Said will be going home at 3pm to sleep. Better also. Had a tiring day. Okies!! That's all i've to post for now. If got further progress, i will update here again. :)
-=Endz=-
1155 hours
Met up with Qiqi and Ricky outside momo yesterday. We were thirsty and George was hungry. So we decided to had a drink and some food to chill and relax for waiting for time to pass. After a while, we met DAVE, Robin and his friend. Subsequently also met Sean from DK4, Takashi, Shawnie, IKo, James, Angela and Coolbabe. Not long my korkor came liao. We went over to the members queue to meet up with him an went to find our table. Inside momo, while looking for our table, there were lots of ups and downs la! We had to wait for a long time to find the V3 table while looking for the manager Celine and were standing there like a statue for i think about half and hour or so. Qiqi was so pissed off. Heh!!! Not long kor came in and started to open 2 of the Martell bottles. I drank and enjoyed the music. It was only later that the music started to be nice and was dancing whole night long. Luckily our table there has a fan. Otherwise die liao coz very very hot after dancing. I did went down to the dance area to dance dance a bit with Verlyn and Lynette. Saw Fel and the rest next to the DJ as well. All was fun!!! Oh oh! Met Ajuana, Sean MoMo and others as well. =)) Then George told me that he saw his ex opposite. I was like "Duh!! Sianx full time liao!!!" Then started to give him the attitude lo. Qiqi asked him to come and coax me and it was like only after a while then i give in to him. He knows that i am jealous and tries to tell me not to.
Guy : I never miss her at all lor..here finishing soon. You go sleep first. i reach home sms u ok? miss u. [Awww..How sweet of him right?] I really like him a LOT larz. DIE LIAO!! I also don't know how.
As time goes by, soon it was time for me to leave that place and head for home liao. Before leaving, i gave him a super Big HUGZ then went home. Nice Nice hug u know? ^.^ George left i think about 5+. He went home to shower a bit then went back to work at 6.30am. Really very tiring for him. *Sighs!* No choice. Work ma. I woke up at about 11am and message him. He called me shortly and told me that his eyes cannot open liao. In an orr-orr mode. Said will be going home at 3pm to sleep. Better also. Had a tiring day. Okies!! That's all i've to post for now. If got further progress, i will update here again. :)
-=Endz=-
1155 hours
Friday, April 20, 2007
Hmmz..Funny feeling and don't know what to do..
Aiya! I just wanted to type some nonsense in this blog coz suddenly filled with lotsa thoughts and wonder what to do with them. Can someone out there tell me what to do?
Guy: I had a past that is very bad for me. I knew someone who caused me to have phobia against having new relationship. I have a very horrible temper and no one can tolerate it even my family members. I am very possessive,and so no girls like and never will be able to tolerate me. I also have lots of problems at hand right now. So will not want to be in a relationship at the moment.
Girl : She tells him that everyone also have their character and unique in their own ways. A bad relationship in the past doesn't mean ur next relationship will not be a good one. All in all, it adds up to individual's experience and the person will learn better from it. Horrible temper is a character which takes time to curb it down one. It doesn't resolves the temper overnight. As the person grows older, he/she will know how to control the temper and die down to a certain extent. As for the possessiveness, nobody can stop it one. But it also depends to what extent is the possessiveness la. Can't be stop the girl from going out or making new friends right?
Guy : You're just half-half relationship in my heart.
Girl : Meaning = a friend as well as a soul partner to be with (That's what i understand).
Complicated issue ain't it so? Qiqi, how la how la? You ask me to take it easy and slowly go for it. But...sighs sighs sighs!! I am filled with doubts at the moment. You know hor. If that person don't call me, i feel weird leh. I will wonder what happen to him. It is like very natural that he calls me when he've the time to do so. I really don't know what is going to happen. Please..HELP ME!! =(
-=Endz=-
1135 hours.
Guy: I had a past that is very bad for me. I knew someone who caused me to have phobia against having new relationship. I have a very horrible temper and no one can tolerate it even my family members. I am very possessive,and so no girls like and never will be able to tolerate me. I also have lots of problems at hand right now. So will not want to be in a relationship at the moment.
Girl : She tells him that everyone also have their character and unique in their own ways. A bad relationship in the past doesn't mean ur next relationship will not be a good one. All in all, it adds up to individual's experience and the person will learn better from it. Horrible temper is a character which takes time to curb it down one. It doesn't resolves the temper overnight. As the person grows older, he/she will know how to control the temper and die down to a certain extent. As for the possessiveness, nobody can stop it one. But it also depends to what extent is the possessiveness la. Can't be stop the girl from going out or making new friends right?
Guy : You're just half-half relationship in my heart.
Girl : Meaning = a friend as well as a soul partner to be with (That's what i understand).
Complicated issue ain't it so? Qiqi, how la how la? You ask me to take it easy and slowly go for it. But...sighs sighs sighs!! I am filled with doubts at the moment. You know hor. If that person don't call me, i feel weird leh. I will wonder what happen to him. It is like very natural that he calls me when he've the time to do so. I really don't know what is going to happen. Please..HELP ME!! =(
-=Endz=-
1135 hours.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Is it just so simple??
As for now, just live with faith.
Love is infact Simple, just that we humans, made it complicated. Just keep it simple, mix in a little chemistry and follow ur heart.
That way u will not go wrong.
If it is only so, why are there so many ppl still hurt? Are they learning from their past experience of being hurt and stand up once again? Tell me about it.....
-=Endz=-
1320 hours
Love is infact Simple, just that we humans, made it complicated. Just keep it simple, mix in a little chemistry and follow ur heart.
That way u will not go wrong.
If it is only so, why are there so many ppl still hurt? Are they learning from their past experience of being hurt and stand up once again? Tell me about it.....
-=Endz=-
1320 hours
Tertiary Fling coming up on 26th April 2007..<>
Hmmzz...I'm in school right now and have lotsa free time. Luckily i manage to find a free station for me to type some crazy stuff onto my blog as well as check e-mails. Without further or do, i've decided to update my blog with new post in case people complain that i never update my blog wor. Heez!! =DD
Alright! Anyway, Tertiary Fling 6 (TF6) is approaching very soon. Let's say in a weeks time. Tickets are furiously being distributed to people all around. Oh yah!!! Not forgetting that George buddy will be celebrating his birthday at TF6!! Woots!! It is going to be hell og a happy time on that day. Of course, i'm also suffering the same fate. I am going to have lots of tf6 tickets with me. So anyone who is interested, please do help me with distributing the tickets to your friends so that they can enter for FREE of course! Heh!! =p I'm wondering where did all the clubbing people go since today is a new start for many of the poly students. Hope to see some funky people around polys who club but seems like there are not many. Maybe they are hiding in disguise huh? [Hmmzz..thinking cap on.. ^^]
Kinda stuck at the moment in thinking wad to type...Forgive me yah? Only have bits and pieces of facts in my brain at the moment. So i just type whatever i'm thinking. Heex! Yah YAh!!! TF6 tickets on the loose lar...need to give out to as many ppl as possible. Help me find ppl....ThanX!!
-=Endz=-
1230 hours
Alright! Anyway, Tertiary Fling 6 (TF6) is approaching very soon. Let's say in a weeks time. Tickets are furiously being distributed to people all around. Oh yah!!! Not forgetting that George buddy will be celebrating his birthday at TF6!! Woots!! It is going to be hell og a happy time on that day. Of course, i'm also suffering the same fate. I am going to have lots of tf6 tickets with me. So anyone who is interested, please do help me with distributing the tickets to your friends so that they can enter for FREE of course! Heh!! =p I'm wondering where did all the clubbing people go since today is a new start for many of the poly students. Hope to see some funky people around polys who club but seems like there are not many. Maybe they are hiding in disguise huh? [Hmmzz..thinking cap on.. ^^]
Kinda stuck at the moment in thinking wad to type...Forgive me yah? Only have bits and pieces of facts in my brain at the moment. So i just type whatever i'm thinking. Heex! Yah YAh!!! TF6 tickets on the loose lar...need to give out to as many ppl as possible. Help me find ppl....ThanX!!
-=Endz=-
1230 hours
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Feelings, thoughts and more thoughts...
You given me hope, but always got back in disappointment.
When I badly miss you, I felt disorientated.
Is this bad? Unhealthy?
Or maybe its natural to feel this way when I miss somebody "YOU", that I've waiting all this while.
Or LOVE is in the air and I'm surrounded with hearts all around me.
It cannot be described, it felt so hurts as if there's nothing else is in this world.
But its like clapping with one hand, because.
It feel like that somebody "YOU", is not showing any signs of FEELINGS/LOVE/CARE about me at all again.
So am I clapping with one hand or both hands?
Thats the question
Should I keep holding on?
Should I keep waiting?
And where is your compensate?
-===================================================================-
Haha~ Suddenly have all these complicated thoughts overwhelmed in my heart, soul and head. I just wanna be sayang, dote and pampered. Too much of all these really sux huh? LOL!!! I will be FINE and alright de.
-=Endz=-
When I badly miss you, I felt disorientated.
Is this bad? Unhealthy?
Or maybe its natural to feel this way when I miss somebody "YOU", that I've waiting all this while.
Or LOVE is in the air and I'm surrounded with hearts all around me.
It cannot be described, it felt so hurts as if there's nothing else is in this world.
But its like clapping with one hand, because.
It feel like that somebody "YOU", is not showing any signs of FEELINGS/LOVE/CARE about me at all again.
So am I clapping with one hand or both hands?
Thats the question
Should I keep holding on?
Should I keep waiting?
And where is your compensate?
-===================================================================-
Haha~ Suddenly have all these complicated thoughts overwhelmed in my heart, soul and head. I just wanna be sayang, dote and pampered. Too much of all these really sux huh? LOL!!! I will be FINE and alright de.
-=Endz=-
Friday, April 13, 2007
FINALLY!!! Have been Lost n hence....
Hmmmz..been wanted to write on my blog but don't know wad to write that's why have been denying my blog all this while. Sad case huh? =(( [Mei ren ai jiu shi zhe yang de]
But well...LIFE STILL HAS TO GO ON. Otherwise i think i will die de!! Nothing much to do all these while except to club and make more friends. I also don't know what's wrong with me. It is just 'empty' inside bah. Empty n more empty. Think the happiness ain't coming back to me anymore. It will drift further n further away. Haiz... Then let it be bahz. This kinda thing cannot be forced de. Will come means will come. Otherwise just let me be then.
Don't know wad am i saying. Just lotsa crap n more crap. Or else i stop writing my blog, wait ppl will complain that i never write a single thing. Haha! =p
-=Endz=-
But well...LIFE STILL HAS TO GO ON. Otherwise i think i will die de!! Nothing much to do all these while except to club and make more friends. I also don't know what's wrong with me. It is just 'empty' inside bah. Empty n more empty. Think the happiness ain't coming back to me anymore. It will drift further n further away. Haiz... Then let it be bahz. This kinda thing cannot be forced de. Will come means will come. Otherwise just let me be then.
Don't know wad am i saying. Just lotsa crap n more crap. Or else i stop writing my blog, wait ppl will complain that i never write a single thing. Haha! =p
-=Endz=-
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